I promised a while ago that I would share the word I chose to guide me through this year, a practice I started about 4 years ago (you can check it out here). I have not forgotten about it and, as the New Year is here again, it seems a fitting time to bring up the subject again. My word for 2014 is (was) Love.
When I chose to focus on Love I was going through a very difficult situation that required me to let go completely because the only other alternative was to stay stuck in a very unpleasant place. I chose to grow, to learn from the situation, so I prayed for Love to save the day. I prayed for Love to save me from the confining chains of righteousness. I gave up wanting to be right. I gave up wanting others to see the truth of the situation. I gave up my need for having an adult conversation about it, as it was not forthcoming. I gave up defending myself. I gave up rejecting the other person. All these things I gave up and I sat with my pain and my anger. I sat with what I knew could give me cheap vindication. But most of all I sat with an overwhelming desire to be transformed by it all. It was clear to me from the start that this was my opportunity to learn to be Love. So I thanked God for sending me this person to teach me about Love.
I have learned that when I pray for something, I don’t get the thing itself. I get experiences that teach me about the thing. So this year I have learned many lessons on Love. These lessons were not limited to the situation I described above, but encompassed all areas of my life. Here are a few of the things I have learned in 2014 about living a life filled with Love:
I learned that Love is the supreme force of the Universe, otherwise known as God. It is the seed of life and its nurturer. Love is all.
I learned that Love is not only accepting others completely as they are, with all their gifts, quirks as well as detestable traits, but also accepting myself in the same way.
I learned that if I hold myself in a place of Love, I can see the good in someone I despise and connect with them on that level. The level of their potential.
I learned that I don’t have to make myself love someone I despise. I can accept them as they are and be out of their way.
I learned that Love can wait and does not need to manipulate or retaliate.
I learned that Love is in the now.
I learned that Love is giving first (that thing I want – when I give it first – that’s Love).
I learned that Love is being angry then saying sorry (as opposed to denying myself my anger and letting it fester) and learning to be ok with it.
I learned that Love is the truth.
I learned that Love heals.
All these things I learned through experience.
As the year comes to a close and a new one begins, I intend to carry the lessons learned into the New Year, as I continue on my journey to becoming the person I meant to be. Of course there is a new word in the pipeline for 2015 and I hope to be able to share more of myself with you in the year to come.
Wishing you a Love filled year and for your goals, resolutions and intentions to materialize.
Happy New Year!